Lonely. EDIT

One of the more lonely times in my life these days is school breaks. It really makes me dread them, which is just sad. But everyone's gone. Everyone goes home but me it seems, mostly because it's a 3 hour drive, mostly because I don't even have a BED anymore. And I don't have anyone really left in Mason. A few people, but they're never around or don't want to see me.

During the day, I'm fine. I work, I go to class, I manage my alone time pretty well. It's right now, when I'd be making plans, when I'd be finishing dinner with M or getting ready with the roomie. It's jersey shore night and EVERYONE IS GONE. I just sit here listening to Pomplamoose with my enhanced hot chocolate. I've exausted hulu and youtube, I've almost reached the end of Regretsy and I'm just getting sad and lonely.

I miss my PEOPLE. That, and feeling like my life has purpose. But at least if my people are here I can pretend I matter.

Sigh.

EDIT

How can I be happy and depressed at the same time? I don't understand.