Ouch.

Life is overwhelming sometimes, ya know?

School is going alright. I'm busy as hell, constantly. It seems like I always have somewhere I need to be or work I need to do. I'm ok though. I'll make it, because I always have. I thrive on busy.

I need to come to terms with the choices I've made. I made a choice to go one way, and no matter how much I regret it (which is pretty much daily), I've made a choice. I can't go back on it, nor could I really at this point. I'm so incredibly sorry, you. I let you down, I didn't give you enough credit. I miss you every day. I can't tell you how much I wanted things to work out. I can't believe I made such a crutial mistake. It will probably haunt me for the rest of my life.

On the other hand, I'm asking you to please still be there. Believe it or not, I consider you one of my best friends, even now. I feel like you're avoiding me, or maybe I just keep missing you. Either way, I feel so strange. Something is definately missing and I'm not functioning the way I normally do. I need my friend.

Hi Blog.

I'll write someday, I promise.
There's too much happening.
I can't write it all.
I don't want to write just a sliver, I want to put the whole thing down.

So I'm sorry.
I'll write again sometime.

I would really like to throw up all of what I'm feeling into this, but I don't even know where to start.

I didn't know.
I don't know what to do.

I'm ruining lives.