I don't know.
It's like I'm two different people.
I'm sorry.
I could choose the one you like the best.

I do wish I were different.
With stronger self-control.
I think with some motivation I can be.

I just need to find the right kind of motivation.
I believe that's where you come in.

Iowa vs. ISU

I love playing for a football team that wins. :)

LIFE?

Life is getting very strange right now. School is definitely keeping me on my toes. I have to play in trumpet seminar tomorrow and I'm quite nervous - playing in front of trumpet majors and professors (and Spencer!) is quite horrific.

I'm being pulled in several different directions and I'm not sure which one should win. Each has it's rewards and each has it's definite setbacks. I don't want to have to choose. I don't want to be stressed out anymore either. I want a break. I haven't had a weekend since I got here. Did I mention it's the Iowa vs. ISU game this weekend?!?

Which means I can't come home for MCHS homecoming. That hurts a lot. I promised numerous people I'd be there rooting for them. I really wanted to see how my marching band is doing. Because I still refer to it as that - my marching band.

I'm not sure where I am. Or who I am at this point. Or what to do.

I suppose I'll just keep playing my trumpet - that always pulls through for me.

Huh?

I'm not really sure what happened.
I'm very confused.

My new trumpet comes tomorrow though!

Horoscope

Gemini:
Put your arrangements in order, and invite everyone you enjoy to join in. A little romance will leade to a partnership that is above and beyond your expectations. Get your responsibilities out of the way early so they don't bog you down.

Interesting.

Realization day.

Bummer.
I miss some things a lot.