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Hi Guys.

Sorry for my leave of absence. I've been so freakin busy! Last week I had 3 concerts and with finals coming up, lots of studying to do. Anyway, here's what I've been up to:

School. Though I'm only taking a few "real" classes, they've proved to be challenging. By the time I'm finished rehearsing for ensembles and practicing for hours, homework just doesn't seem important. I can't wait to be done with general education.

Trumpet. Lessons, ensembles, just playing constantly. I don't feel like I've gotten any better, but perhaps I don't have very good judgement on that one. We shall see come jury time, which is not next Monday, but the one after that. Curious about juries? Feel free to ask.

Friends. I've made a few. More than I ended with in high school, which is few. This is probably because they don't know about my past. I simply get to start over, without them knowing my royal screw ups. It's nice. They're all very nice, and we've had a lot of good times so far.

Boy. Yes, I am currently dating someone. He's very nice, and we have good conversations. It's not very serious, but I think I'm ok with that. After a few really serious relationships and heartbreaking break-ups under my belt, I'm ok with casual and fun. I do miss having that strong connection though. It's just not there. Hmm.

Home. I've realized there's not a lot for me here anymore. I didn't have very many friends here in the first place, and the few that I really wanted to see kinda flaked out on me. A few have good reasons to (it's probably for the best right now anyway) and a few actually have made an effort to hang out (yay! thank you!), but most of the others apparently have better things to do or cooler people to hang out with. It's ok. I'm actually ok with it. I know where my true friends are. They are here for me, or will hopefully be here for me in the future. They should know I'm always here for them. I think they do, though.

For the most part, I'm doing ok. I don't feel like crying daily anymore, and I kinda like myself. There are things I still regret, choices I've made, how they affected people. I wish I was doing better in school. I wish I was a better trumpet player. But I'm doing ok. I've got friends who like me. I've got friends who LOVE me. I have a boyfriend who thinks I'm pretty neat. I've got a family and a place to come home to here in Mason. I've got a place to go home to in Iowa City too.

So yeah. Update. I'll try to do a better job, however with finals approaching, I'm not sure how that will work. We shall see I suppose.

Hope you all enjoyed your break!

THANKSGIVING BREAK!!!

Soooo in need of a break.
I hope to write a lovely long update post sometime.
Becuase I'll have time!

I've lost part of me.

What?

I can't make everyone happy.
I can't please everyone.
I can't do everything.
I can't agree to do everything.
I can't commit to everything.
I can't make everyone happy.

Why is this so hard for me? Why can't I do everything like I did in high school? It's not fair!!!

Why can't I play in every musical group?

You mean I have to tell so-and-so I CAN'T play in ____ for them?

What?
This will be a hard lesson to learn. :/

Yes.

What a cool feeling :)

I voted. And Obama won.
Seriously. Just participated in history.
HOW AWESOME IS THAT?!?

We just elected the first president of color.
Go America!

I voted!