INKED!

I've decided to get a tattoo. Nothing tacky, large, or embarrassing (I knew you'd be concerned). I'm not even sure what made me decide. I just figured I would get one someday. And I knew it had to be something meaningful. I believe I have found a symbol I can never regret.

As to the whereabouts of said tattoo, I couldn't tell you. I've found a good ink pen and have been drawing to the best of my ability on various places of my body. Weird? I know. But how else could I decide?

I'm curious to hear what you all have to say (all, what, 4 of you?) about tattooing, this particular design, or anything else. I promise to not be offended!

This is one of the strangest posts I've ever written.

Oh woe is me.

Why can't I win?
:(
I hate dating.



I'm done complaining now.

FINALLY

I had a really good night.

:)

PostSecret hits home.

I saw this today and I felt my stomach drop and my heart in my throat.




This is everything I felt and never knew how to say. The whole time I was so sad inside. You could never had known, because I never opened up to you about it. I made excuses. I'm so sorry.

Now that I'm learning to love myself, you're gone.

It still hurts sometimes.

BUT

I'll be ok.

Yikes!!

I am very afraid for my face.

I played my trumpet today for the first time since July 3rd. I can play fine (just normal face-that-hasn't-played-in-awhile), except for when I try to play high, the holes in my mouth don't feel good at all. I envision playing a high note and the pressure from that will cause my gums to explode and blood to flow from the wounds like flood waters. So I only played for about 5 minutes today. I have a pretty important rehearsal on Monday and even more importantly, a concert on the following Sunday. Besides that, I have some pretty important auditions coming up and I just hope getting these damned teeth out hasn't spoiled my chances making the good bands/orchestras. I'm extremely stressed out over it. I'm not sure how to solve the issue.

Are any of you dentists? Please help!!

Toothless

I got all four wisdom teeth out today.

Ugghhh.

Thank goodness for pain medication!


EDIT

No, do NOT thank goodness for medication.
Now, along with my swollen face, I'm nauseous.
YAY....

Things in (or is it on?) my mind.

Hello.

I'm feeling very peculiar lately. I'm not miserable, not totally overjoyed. Not really content, but not overly motivated to change anything. I'm sorta just chillin. Don't really know how to feel about it...

This weekend I'm going to Chicago with two of my best friends. It will be the first time in a while that our trio will come together and spend some serious quality time with one another. Many events, both positive and negative, have sort of separated us a bit. We're always there for each other, but it will be nice to just hang out again. I am very excited. I hope they are too!

The last municipal band of the season is this week. I'll be sad to see it pass, but I'm sure I'll play again next year. Also, you'll be pleased to hear the dixieland rehearsal went much better this time around. We may have actually accomplished something! I think that will be decent.

Besides that, since the musical I find my days very pointless. Most days I sit around and watch TV. Or work. It's not that I don't have anything to do. In fact, I have a list of things I NEED to do. Like write thank yous. Or finish unpacking my room (that I've lived in for over a month now) . And I have a chair I'd like to paint! But instead, I watch stupid vh1 shows all day. Maybe tomorrow I'll accomplish something.

That's what's on my mind at the moment. I figured I should update a bit. I check every one's blog daily and I am sad to see no updates, yet I don't write anything myself.

So here ya go!