100 degree heat index

begin: 1:53pm
days until school: 26
days choir camp: 3
days until band camp: 16
time until i have to work: 3 hours and 7 minutes
i feel: frusterated
i'm listening to: spongebob in the background
i'm wearing: a sweatshirt, even though it's boiling hot outside
i need to: finish my us history homework
i wish: summer wasn't ending so quickly
end: 1:56pm

i gave up on my list.
just to let you know.

my list

Everyone has nifty "to do lists". i though i should participate.

1. clean my horrifically messy room
2. practice my trumpet at least (10) times in the month of July
3. complete the "summer fun list" created by matt & i
4. go for a solo bike ride
5. do some of the us history homework
6. complete the us history homework
7. get some applications
8. turn in the applications
9. follow through with the applications
10. learn an new song on guitar
11. talk to my mom
12. play with my brother jake
13. do something silly with my sister erin
14. feel inspired to write something
15. improve my jones soda bottle collection
16. be home on time at least once
17. go on a walk
18. drive the car (4) times
19. go to night games on wednesday
20. celebrate with chad on friday
21. leave lindsay (3) comments on myspace for when she gets back
22. clean the living room
23. and the kitchen
24. and the storage space downstairs
25. sell my guitar
26. burn a good mix cd

that's all for now. i'm sure i'll add more.

edit 1
i managed to cross off 5 items today/yesterday! and minus a few of the numbers like my trumpet playing and such. yesterday was kind of a bad day. i don't feel like telling you why. luckily i have amazing friends who make me feel better. tonight was cool cause i hung out with some people i haven't seen in a while. and matt and i shared deep conversation time.

edit 2
so i only got 2 things crossed off. yeah, i'm a loser.

edit 3
4 things today! chad's bday was fun and lindsay came home. i played outside with my brother today. tomorrow i plan on tackling my room. cross your fingers...

edit 4
so i didn't accomplish ANYTHING yesterday. sigh...

edit 5
i didn't do anything for a few days, and then i did like...68479817 things at once. i got some job applications and nearly finished my room. i also sold my guitar! yay! i hope to finish my room today. we'll see.

edit 6
finished my room. drove some. practiced trumpet. turned in applications. good deal.

****

tell me, why would you be in a relationship that never pays off?

one where once every 2 or 3 months, someone gets kicked out of the house.

they'll "never move back in"

then they start talking again

"things will be better"

he moves back in

things are fine for a few days

fighting starts

and the circle starts again...

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?