F F F Freakout

So it's been a really long time since I've had a bad freak out. Like overwhelmed-can't-function-freak out. And then today it happened. Overly stressed out afternoon, then having to deal with being responsible at HMB rehearsal. As long as I'm in control of things, it's usually alright, but I showed up, totally flustered, not sure what was happening and I just freaked. Like literally, standing in the middle of everyone pulling my hair, not being able to speak really. People would ask me questions and all I could say was "I don't know".

You'd think by now I'd learn to take on less responsibilities, but no. I take them all on and then I have to be amazing at all of them. It's part of my OCDness, I'm sure. But I get so nit-picky about everything I do until KABLAM explosion in my face. Roar for sure.

Anyway, I think I really might start blogging again. And I think all of you who used to should too. I miss reading about your lives. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARRRRREEEEE.