D.

Hello.

Quick note before I get going, my weight loss goal may need to be modified. Between stress and being poor, I don't eat the best and find it hard to get to the gym. The goal is still there, it just may take a little longer to reach. I'm not giving up.



I am really sad about my friend D. She is still dealing with a horrible, awful break up, and I don't know how to help. Part of it is that she doesn't want help from anyone, which I get. I'm the kind of person who doesn't want to be helped, who wants too keep everything locked up and not burden anyone. Part of it is not very many people know about the situation, and only she knows what it really feels like to deal with it. I can empathize, I can feel bad, I can try to put myself in her shoes, but I'll never really know.

We got in an argument last weekend. At least I think it was an argument. I don't really know how to describe it. I instigated a melt-down and I feel horrible. I never meant for things to get that out of hand. And when I tried to fix things, tried to make sure she was ok and not dead in an alley, it just got worse.

I just want to help. I just want her to be ok, to feel happy again and to be able to not feel the way she does every day. If I could, I would make everything better. She's so smart, I feel like she should be able to see that nothing about this situation/her ex/acting the way she does is good. But again, different shoes. I just can't wait for the day that her ex isn't around all the time. I feel like that would be the one thing that could help.

I heart you, D. And I refuse to abandon you. You are one of my People, and nobody messes with my People.