Life is confusing right now. Not sure what I want.
Been really sick lately, thought I was getting over it, but it's just morphed really. It started out being really tired, developed into a fever, then sinus issues (congestion, severe pain), moved to the throat, then day long migraines. I can only hope it's not the H1N1 (someone semi close to me has a confirmed case...) Probably just gross illness...yes...please?
Also been thinking about M a bit recently. He randomly pops in and out of my life, and in a more significant way a week or so ago. He was in IC and suggested hanging out. Unfortunately, we couldn't work anything out and we went the whole day without seeing each other. I was pleasantly surprised he came out and suggested we hang, since all the previous times I've suggested it he's been reluctant or just won't at all. And then *poof* he's gone again. Back into the woodwork. I just don't get him. I really would like to get back in touch and see how he's doing, be civilized, even become *GASP* friends. I just don't understand that boy. I used to, it's been too long I suppose.
I was gonna write about B but now I've changed my mind. Sorry. It's at an awkward point right now. We split but are hanging out and blah blah blah I just don't feel like explaining to you right now so THERE.
I'm just at a place right now I guess. I really just want to be content and happy, and I'm experimenting with how to make that happen. I haven't figured it out, and I'm trying different things, I just hope nobody gets hurt in the process. But damn it, I've done so much for other people, and sacrificed my happiness for other people I deserve some too, right? YES.
What an odd post. Eh.
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