I believe this has been the most confusing, awkward, heart-breaking, angry, self-destructing year of my life.
I believe it's time to begin anew.
I'm very excited to focus all my time and energy on music and self renovation.
I'm stoked to find more people who get my goofy music references (I say more because I have a few who already do -- I love you guys!)
I'm afraid I won't be able to find friends who get me like you guys do.
I'm really scared that my best friends will drift away from me. That they'll find better people than me.
I'm terrified I won't be good enough to pursue this musical career.
Promise you'll stick with me, faithful blog? I know I waiver and disappoint at times, but I am not perfect. I'm doing the best I can, but I choose poor outlets to deal with things. I'm working on it. It's more a self-esteem issue than anything else. And this fear of losing the people that are most valuable and important to me.
I REFUSE to be a drunken college student. And I WON'T lose my best friends. I AM a great trumpet player and I WILL be successful. End of story.
1 comment:
If you have confidence and believe in yourself, which it looks like you do, then anything you could possibly dream of happening will happen. I think it's ridiculous that you could even say that you're "not good enough" to pursue a musical career, because as everyone you went to school with knows, you obviously are.
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