Wandering

I'm at a strange point in my life right now. I don't fully know where I am or what's going on. Normally, I HATE this. For some reason, I'm calm right now though. I know what I want, but it's just out of my reach. I don't really know what to do about it. I'm aching for more, yet content. What is going on? Perhaps some sorting would help.

Things I want:

To successfully graduate hs

To get on the right track

To be in a healthy, positive, relationship with M

To find a home for my cat

To have a positive self image

To find out what faith is

To be a better, nicer, more generous version of myself

Things getting in my way:
Pride

Stubbornness

The past (especially with M)

Slackerness of senioritis

Worrying about things I can't control

Bitterness

What I can do:

Try faith

Worry less

Keep trying with M - I know this will work and I know with M on my side, I can accomplish more
Find someone who wants a cat to love

Think before I speak

Let go of the past

This is very inspiring to me. I need to jump.